"S I G N S!"

Last night “cc” and I clash again!!! (Because of are undying issues!!)
I cried a lot and he says things that really break my heart!!! He told me that im always crying, that I don’t have a peace of mind because im thinking a lot of things!!! and more of his upsetting words. I can’t help myself but just CRY! while he’s talking.
I admit that expressing myself when im hurt especially when im mad! Is HARD for me to do, (I keep my mouth shut! and CRY! to relieve the pain im feeling) Even if I want to burst it out! And explode I choose to stay quiet, not to finish or dodge the issue but I just don’t want to say a word that might hurt him back.(I think first before I speak) But I can’t take his words any longer... So I decided to just hang-up and end our conversation instead!

After that conversation with him I still end up crying im soooooo mad at him, that very moment! I hate him so much! (And yet despite the fact, I can’t say it to him directly!) Not because im scared of him but it’s my way of respecting him and our relationship! I love him and I don’t want to take it against him but??? How can he be so rude to me last night!
Later after my long running sob mode. I immediately went to bed and before sleeping I prayed to God and asked for some signs!!! Gosh!!!!! Unconsciously after praying I fell asleep.


3:30 am... a call from our land phone woke me up and out of the blue I got up quickly and answered that call. I saw “cc’s” land phone digits through are caller I.D
My heart beats faster!! And my hands are shaking! Because im expecting to hear “someone’s” voice!!! Im surprised!! Hearing “cc’s” voice!!! It’s him!!! Not “that “someone I anticipate” geeee! Watah!

He says THAT HE IS SORRY(I will not elaborate everything that we’ve talked about! It’s all settled anyhow.) im so touched! For whatever its worth! “It’s my baby talking now... “

We hang-up with “I love you and sorry baby...”
After that extreme moment! I prayed again! and asked myself "Is it the sign im asking from God..." :')