"LEFT OUT!"

uhm! i hate doing this but i will give it a shot!

My step dad is back home! To visit my mommy
Where are they? HYATT Hotel I haven’t seen them since my Papa Manchang arrived.

Last Friday they went in Morong Bataan to visit some relatives. With my Lola and my Tita im left home with Manang Rosie. (Thanks to Erik because he fetch me last Friday night!) tsss… (I don’t even know that they’re leaving!)

I feel so left out these past few months! They don’t even want to join me in our dining table and more of those heart breaking whatsooooever!

Sometimes I just want to leave it all that waaaay! I don’t want to brag things because I know I have my faults and it was really a devastating part of my life but my question is why only now? Why this sudden burst of anger?

I have no one to hold on to… And I can’t take this any longer! I love them so much and im sooooo sorry for all the things that I’ve done to them especially to my mom. Okay! Enough of this drama!

I just want to focus more now on my career path! I have lots of overkill suitcases here in my mind and in my heart! It hurts me a lot, thinking of all the things that had happened in my life and sad to say but I’m still searching for an answer!

I’m in a traffic lane! So traffic that I don’t even know where to go anymore! And where to stop! I still love the person who perfectly ruined my life! Im loving him with no guarantee that he’ll be mine at the end of the day! Any day now he’ll be leaving me again I’m sure of that! But why am i still staying?
I just don’t know… I so love him this much! So much that I can even forget about everything that he had done to me! Im praying that one day he’ll realize my worth not as someone who will just make him happy but someone worthwhile! I maybe a little piece of a diamond but I know my worth and I know my value he just can’t see that little piece of me! Tears!