"Plastic Dolls"

There’s this saying goes…
"It is better to be TRUSTed than to be loved."

B-I-N-G-O!! The magic word in life I guess is TRUST!
(We dealt in our own lives and play with our own cards)
ONE MAJOR RULE: we should know how to play it hardcore because if not? we’ll be defeated and crashed down.

Im a bit exhausted of hearing this to a lot of people:
“khryssy hirap kasi sayo grabe ka magtiwala sa mga tao, hindi mo na alam sino ang totoo sa skanila.” THIS IS OH-SO-TRUE!

I received an UNEXPECTED call before the New Year hits the clock…
I was sooo shocked hearing that voice, while im holding my phone I started crying but I see to it, that person is not hearing my tears. I’ve heard a lot of explanations and im speechless BIG BANG! another issue hits me! (I will not mention everything in here) I just can’t believe what ive heard and it was really a devastating one! I hate being skeptical to other people and I hate judging them by a mere hear say, because I think it’s a big NO-NO and if the story aren’t true I don’t bite them literally!

My friends know me, from my very 1st and last word that I’ll utter if I don’t like who’s in front of me! Im not a plastic doll seriously! If I don’t feel like talking to you I will make you feel it and if I vanished my trust on you SORRY but no way to have it back again (especially for a friend ive been there and done it already!) in the past ive trusted a lot of people and what did I get? Nothing!! I gave them all! My attention, my money literally my everything! If they need someone im the best person they can talk to! I don’t give them my limitations and I don’t give boundaries as long as i can help them I will give it all to them!

But NOW! Who am I going to trust at this very moment aside from my best persons?
All I can say is this!
I may be deceived if I trust too much, but I will live in torment if I don't trust enough.
To be trusted is a greater complement than to be loved isn't? I DON’T KNOW WHO IS WHO and WHAT IS WHAT! But I know someone is up there watching us all down here soon I’ll be getting my answer. But for now im backing off to those people who aren’t TRUE to me and keeps on banging my nerve!

I don’t get mad easily but im over flowing and my kindness is over I will make them feel my anger this time. It’s a matter of silent treatment and it’s a matter of forgetting even their names. “Ditch” is the right and appropriate term for them!
Im hurting because it’s a 3 in a row… who else and what else!! Isn’t over yet?!! If not let it all out now Papa God! Im tired of these people! Im tired! How could they do these to me!

Applause to them for being such a great actors and actresses!!! I salute them for being one!
Im not a envy person, I never talk shit, I give chances (so many chances) but instead i am a very giving person, I don’t get mad easily I weigh up things 1st! I love dearly (whether youre a new found friend or even a so-so friend) to tap this all I’M A REAL PERSON! YES! Hate me for doing this but I’ll boast it on! I am flaunting it! (Im not a “show off person” but at this very moment? In any degree im doing it!!! im boasting my whole packaging!! Im so angry!!)
I hate pretentious people, Envy people! Plastic doll people I hate all these crap junk stories and more…

WHATELSE! WHATS NEXT IN LINE… im not a perfect human being but I see to it that in every accomplishment I have done in my life! I keep it all real!
When I say I’ll be here and there for you no matter what, and more of me… TRUST me on this because I will give it to you! Not half hearted but whole heartedly!

Xns: "i cant sleep i just need to burst this out here!!! its 5.50am and im still awake!"

Shoot: Just don’t try to speak when you don’t meant and understand what you’re saying!
Use a HEART not a PRIDE. Conceited persons are not WELCOME IN MY LIFE!
Think and absorb this: Nobody believes the official spokesman... but everybody TRUSTS an unidentified source.

i'm through...