"My Forgiveness...again?"

I've already had a great comment suggesting that the question of forgiveness is largely determined by how we define forgiveness. I think that's exactly right. Before we can know whether we are to forgive conditionally or unconditionally, it's important to know what forgiveness is.

Dictionary defines forgiveness this way:
Forgive
verb (past forgave; past part. forgiven) 1 stop feeling angry or resentful towards (someone) for an offence or mistake. 2 excuse (an offence, flaw, or mistake).

My OWN Definition
Some things that forgiveness is…
Interpersonal? there are many things that can hurt us nature, circumstances, unjust systems but we can only forgive people.
In other words, the question is not an objective evaluation of the evil doings. It is about how we choose to respond to that WRONG DOINGS.

It's not understanding? We may be called to forgive some things we will never understand. We may also understand what has prompted some behavior, but not be ready to forgive. Forgiveness and understanding are two different things. REALLY!!
It's not downplaying the fault. Forgiveness does not mean that we minimize what has happened or downplay it. It doesn't mean avoiding the issue either. We can forgive someone and still tolerate the authorities to deal with the offense, for instance, in a legal matter.
It's not forgetting? We will never forget some of the things we have to forgive. Forgiveness does not mean pushing something out of our minds it means that we deal with our answer in a certain way as we remember.
It's not the same as restoration or reconciliation maybe forgiveness may lead to a so called “restoration” We can forgive someone for stealing money from you, for instance, but you may not choose to keep them as your accountant anymore. It also is not the same as reconciliation. Two friends may forgive each other, but it doesn't necessarily mean that they will continue as best friends. (many of you people will agree on this post)

My main beef with this definition is that it is feelings based to "STOP feeling angry or bitter..." Forgiveness may lead to a change of feelings, but it doesn't begin there. I SHOULD KNOW better!

Maybe BOOK definition is better:

“Forgiveness is the mental, and/or spiritual process of ceasing to feel resentment, indignation or anger against another person for a perceived offense, difference or mistake, or ceasing to demand punishment or restitution.”

What do you think? How would you define forgiveness?

Is forgiveness conditional? In other words, should we wait for someone to confess before we forgive them? Or should we forgiven another person even if they don't apologize?
I won't get into all the details here, but we had to extend forgiveness to a few people. At first we had to forgive dozens of times a day. Over time you find your heart is changing and you only have to forgive the people who hurt you 3-4 times a day. Eventually you realize that you're free and they're forgiven for good. We found ourselves at the end of this process and finally freed from having to dig up what happened, even though what happened was truly brutal at the time… I HOPE YOU GUYS ARE GETTING WHAT IM TRYING TO PUT STRESS HERE
it seems somehow natural to put things behind, to move on. it's easy to say, harder to do. so much baggage is accumulated. Too many memories, too many episodes!!!

is forgiveness the hardest part of life?
Maybe YES or NO! But i hope some people can finally let me go, you know who you are.(its Ron) PLEASE! forgive me for loving my baby’s father this much…
i hope a few can forgive me for things I’ve done, (specially my family…for accepting him again in my life!) and for things they think i've done. i hope i can forgive my outstanding accounts...

Forgiveness flounders even as I exclude myself from the community of sinners.

Bottom line: I love him unconditionally, I FORGIVE HIM and Im still willing to love him again… despite and in spite of everything! steady!

"KEITH KYRES..."

Last January 06, 2008

I was rushed to the hospital and well everything follows… MY WORST NIGHTMARE!

For my baby: KEITH KYRES

I know you’re up there now with papa god pls! Guide mommy and help me to move on. Baby im sorry but I can’t let you go! You will always be in my mind and my system everyday! You will still be my FIRST lovee dubee. Tears…
I know soon we’ll see each other (maybe there I can cuddle and kiss you!)
Baby please visit mommy in her dreams… I so love you dearly my little one!

I will still be waiting this date: JULY 26, 2008 (supposedly my due date…) my baby’s BIRTH DATE!

this is for my Little one:

we went to christ the king January 14, 2008

i may not have my KYRES PHYSICALLY but in my heart and my mind my baby will always stay with me for the rest of my life... tears!

"BEE Movie!"

Everyone is going ga-ga and waiting for this BEE MOVIE!! including my 2 dear friends!

(my Twin Joan and Achie Tammy!) :D

Open in theaters: January 09, 2008 Wednesday (Philippines)


About BEE MOVIE:
Barry B. Benson is a graduate bee fresh out of college who is disillusioned at his lone career choice: making honey. On a rare trip outside the hive, Barry's life is saved by Vanessa, a florist in New York City. As their relationship blossoms, he discovers humans are mass consumers of honey and decides to sue the human race for stealing bees' honey.



and more BEE'S... just visit this site: http://www.beemovie.com/

ENJOY!

XNS:

This cutesy's are from Mc Donalds HAPPY MEAL! hurry! and collect them ALL NOW! I so love them! (cheesle)
Fly and BEE happy! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

" From Jai to Me"

Ive got mail: from my dear friend Jai!!!

(he also made this cutesy!) :D i so love it!

here it is: From Jai
It illustrates: have you watched the movie, THE CITY OF ANGELS? There's a line there: "I cant see you but I know you're there". Hmm, sana nararamdaman mo yung care ko sayo, na iniisip kita kahit hindi mo ako nakikita.

xns:

OH MY GAHD!! Jai you made me cry i'm sooooo touch!!! Thanks!!!

I MISS YOU BIG TIME Boss..tears

"Plastic Dolls"

There’s this saying goes…
"It is better to be TRUSTed than to be loved."

B-I-N-G-O!! The magic word in life I guess is TRUST!
(We dealt in our own lives and play with our own cards)
ONE MAJOR RULE: we should know how to play it hardcore because if not? we’ll be defeated and crashed down.

Im a bit exhausted of hearing this to a lot of people:
“khryssy hirap kasi sayo grabe ka magtiwala sa mga tao, hindi mo na alam sino ang totoo sa skanila.” THIS IS OH-SO-TRUE!

I received an UNEXPECTED call before the New Year hits the clock…
I was sooo shocked hearing that voice, while im holding my phone I started crying but I see to it, that person is not hearing my tears. I’ve heard a lot of explanations and im speechless BIG BANG! another issue hits me! (I will not mention everything in here) I just can’t believe what ive heard and it was really a devastating one! I hate being skeptical to other people and I hate judging them by a mere hear say, because I think it’s a big NO-NO and if the story aren’t true I don’t bite them literally!

My friends know me, from my very 1st and last word that I’ll utter if I don’t like who’s in front of me! Im not a plastic doll seriously! If I don’t feel like talking to you I will make you feel it and if I vanished my trust on you SORRY but no way to have it back again (especially for a friend ive been there and done it already!) in the past ive trusted a lot of people and what did I get? Nothing!! I gave them all! My attention, my money literally my everything! If they need someone im the best person they can talk to! I don’t give them my limitations and I don’t give boundaries as long as i can help them I will give it all to them!

But NOW! Who am I going to trust at this very moment aside from my best persons?
All I can say is this!
I may be deceived if I trust too much, but I will live in torment if I don't trust enough.
To be trusted is a greater complement than to be loved isn't? I DON’T KNOW WHO IS WHO and WHAT IS WHAT! But I know someone is up there watching us all down here soon I’ll be getting my answer. But for now im backing off to those people who aren’t TRUE to me and keeps on banging my nerve!

I don’t get mad easily but im over flowing and my kindness is over I will make them feel my anger this time. It’s a matter of silent treatment and it’s a matter of forgetting even their names. “Ditch” is the right and appropriate term for them!
Im hurting because it’s a 3 in a row… who else and what else!! Isn’t over yet?!! If not let it all out now Papa God! Im tired of these people! Im tired! How could they do these to me!

Applause to them for being such a great actors and actresses!!! I salute them for being one!
Im not a envy person, I never talk shit, I give chances (so many chances) but instead i am a very giving person, I don’t get mad easily I weigh up things 1st! I love dearly (whether youre a new found friend or even a so-so friend) to tap this all I’M A REAL PERSON! YES! Hate me for doing this but I’ll boast it on! I am flaunting it! (Im not a “show off person” but at this very moment? In any degree im doing it!!! im boasting my whole packaging!! Im so angry!!)
I hate pretentious people, Envy people! Plastic doll people I hate all these crap junk stories and more…

WHATELSE! WHATS NEXT IN LINE… im not a perfect human being but I see to it that in every accomplishment I have done in my life! I keep it all real!
When I say I’ll be here and there for you no matter what, and more of me… TRUST me on this because I will give it to you! Not half hearted but whole heartedly!

Xns: "i cant sleep i just need to burst this out here!!! its 5.50am and im still awake!"

Shoot: Just don’t try to speak when you don’t meant and understand what you’re saying!
Use a HEART not a PRIDE. Conceited persons are not WELCOME IN MY LIFE!
Think and absorb this: Nobody believes the official spokesman... but everybody TRUSTS an unidentified source.

i'm through...

"Welcome 2008..."

My 2007 realization hits this:

Life is a blessing! (my little one)

maybe everything happens for a R E A S O N!

its a MATTER of CHOICE...

whether you waste it! or you live with it!

NOT to the expectations, (because all my life i live with so many expectations, i dream BIG but im a very simple person living a very simple life! i just want to prove something for myself

I REALLY WANT TO BE A LAWYER!) my point is through our own inspirations.

(my little one,my good friends around me and the rest of my family)

i realized that "Life is a Lesson! You'll Learn it when your Through..."

H A P P Y 2008 to everyone!!

all the love from:

ME and from my Precious little one!

xns:

I cant wait to HUG and KISS my baby! :'D

"I Am Sam..."

I will never forget this movie!
I cried out loud inside the movie house!!! one of the best movie ive ever seen!
I Am Sam is a 2001 drama film that tells a story about an autistic father and his efforts to retain custody of his daughter.



The film was directed by Jessie Nelson and stars Sean Penn with Michelle Pfeiffer, Dakota Fanning, Dianne Wiest, Loretta Devine, Richard Schiff, Laura Dern and Brent Spiner and was written by Kristine Johnson and Jessie Nelson. The film also features three people, with disabilities, who are playing themselves: Brad Silverman, Joe Rosenberg, and Brian Bialick, all of them are in a group called L.A. GOAL (Greater Opportunities for the Advanced Living), a social organization that deals with adults with developmental disabilities.

Sam Dawson (Sean Penn), an autistic man living in Los Angeles, is single-handedly raising his daughter Lucy (Dakota Fanning), whom he fathered from a homeless woman who wanted nothing to do with Lucy and left him the day of her birth. Although Sam provides a loving and caring environment for the 7-year-old Lucy, she soon surpasses her father's mental capacity. Questions arise about Sam’s ability to care for Lucy and a custody case is brought to court.

Sam is a man with a mental age of 7 who is well adjusted and has a great support system consisting of four similarly developmentally disabled men. His neighbor Annie (Dianne Wiest), a piano-player and agoraphobic, befriends Sam and takes care of Lucy when Sam cannot.

Sam works at Starbucks busing tables. Sam is popular with the customers, whom he addresses by name and favorite coffee. His job gets difficult when Lucy starts grabbing objects, making a woman spill iced coffee down her shirt. In a humorous, but innocent exchange, Sam tries to remove an ice cube from the startled woman's cleavage. Sam then brings Lucy to his neighbor and baby Lucy croons, "Annie!" Sam says, "Her first word was Annie." Flustered but flattered, she retorts, "And people worry you aren't smart," and agrees to function as Lucy's babysitter.

Lucy is as precocious as Sam is backwards. Sam loves reading Green Eggs and Ham to her, but when she starts reading "real hard" books like Stellaluna, she balks at reading the word "different" because she doesn't want to be smarter than her dad. She knows he's different, "not like other dads", but that's all right with her because he is loving, taking her to the park and to International House of Pancakes (every Wednesday, because "Wednesday is IHOP night").

When they decide to go to Big Boy for a change, Sam causes a disturbance because he cannot get the kind of French pancakes he is accustomed to. At the school Halloween party, he dresses as one of the Beatles but embarrasses his daughter by drawing undue attention. Other kids tease her, calling her dad a "retard". She tells one boy that she is adopted. This causes a crisis at her birthday party, which results in an unexpected visit from a social worker who takes Lucy away. A judge allows him only two supervised, 2-hour visits per week.

Sam's friends recommend that he hire Rita (Michelle Pfeiffer), a lawyer. He shows up at her office and starts spelling out his situation while she juggles coffee orders to her assistant, Patricia. Socially, Sam is rather high-functioning—more together in many ways than his high-class, respected lawyer whose marriage is falling apart and whose son hates her.

Sam surprises Rita at a party. Stunned, she announces that she's taking his case pro bono, because others see her as cold and heartless.

Rita begrudgingly works with Sam to help him keep his parental rights, but chaos arises when Lucy convinces Sam to help her run away from the foster home she is being kept in during the trial. Over the course of the trial, Sam gets a new job at Pizza Hut and Annie leaves her apartment for the first time in years. Sam also helps Rita with her family problems, and helps her to realize how much her son really means to her.

During the trial, however, Sam breaks down, after being convinced that he is not capable of taking care of Lucy.

Meanwhile, Lucy is placed with a foster family who plan to adopt her. Lucy often runs away from her foster parents in the middle of the night to go see Sam, who moved into a larger apartment closer to her.

In the end, the foster family who planned on adopting Lucy lets Sam have custody of her. Sam says that Lucy still needs a mother and asks if the foster mother would like to help raise Lucy. The movie ends with Lucy's soccer game where Sam is the referee. In attendance are Lucy's former foster family, the newly divorced Rita and her son with whom Rita has renewed her relationship, along with Annie and Sam's other friends.

xns: bottom line is in any extent ANYONE CAN BE a parent to a child even if s/he's blind,mute, autistic(like sam) or even you are a BUM or a what so ever type of person! as long as it came inside our heart NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE raising a child!
its our own blood and life!
Sam isn't as "retarded" as people percieved him. That's what makes this movie A HUWOW!
"YOU CANT PULL A GOOD MAN DOWN!" judging a person by its cover is a BIG NO-NO!

"Peachy Pork!"

Presenting: My Peachy Pork!!!!

this cutesy is given to me,

from my dearest Amae.

(Achie Tammy and Amae visited me last tuesday

at the office they handed me

this box of milk from Maita :'D and this cute stuffee

(Thanks! maita for remembering)

when i opened Amae's present there's

this BIG smile stucked up on my face

Peachy Pork reminds me of someone!

To:Amae

SUPER thanks! i so Love it!

oh i so love to pinch youre cheeks too!
forgive me for doing that! (cheesle)

My CRAVINGS!!

FRUITS: Seedless grapes and Dalanghita!

my ULTIMATE CRAVINGS!!!

PALITAW!

its a palitaw day everyday for me!!!

PUTO and Fresh Lumpia at Golidilocks

I'M going GAGA over this fooodees!

gosh my taste bud and my stomach

loveeees them so much!

"PAIR of this..."

this is soooo cute!
my cousin's pair of his cute little chukcs!

the very first thing that comes out of my mind when i took this picture:
"SOON i'll be teaching my little one how to DANCE!
and we'll be dancing together all night long!"
ooops! i bet s/he'll be a great dancer too like mommy! oh sorry thats over boarding im not a good dancer, i just know how to do my moves when the music is on. (cheeesle)

but seriously! im SO excited to DANCE with my little! :'D